Life’s Ups and Downs

It’s been a week of ups and downs.  Tuesday I found out i’d passed my exam,  and Wednesday I celebrated my first anniversary working for a housing association…then the downs came along. In September the company i work for announced there would have to be a 15% cut in staff. A voluntary redundancy scheme was put in place and a company wide re-structure put together. The re-structure was announced this week and it’s bad news for my team – one of us will be going…and there are only 4 of us .  I’d be gutted to go as i love what i …but then the guilt kicks in…if i don’t go one of the others will…So Friday was very much black Friday.

Ray went down to the Buddhist House for a pit-stop in the Bodhi retreat. My lungs are still recovering from the chest infection i had, and i decided not to join him. I have been watching my friends on the web though…

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I’ve been feeling low since the news on Friday and I decided to take myself off to Castleton to lift my spirits. Friends know how this part of the country makes my heart sing, and as usual it helped. I’m dreading the weeks ahead; they’ll be non-stop discussion about which one of us will go, and the fairness of it all. Conversations i don’t want to be part of as it won’t stop the deed happening, it will just serve to  make us more miserable. I’d rather just shut the drawer on it and face the news when it’s announced in January.